Something I have fought all my life is depression. If you look back at some of my other posts, sometimes it becomes obvious that I have it. When I was around 20 years old, I was diagnosed with what is called "Cyclothymia". An easier way to know what that is - A-typical bi-polarity (more extreme … Continue reading Depression Can Be A Bitch
Tag: Inspiration
When Old Ideas Get In The Way
Growing up, we all have ideas and thoughts of what we want to do "when we grow up." Sometimes, this dreams come to fruition, sometimes they don't. This is often due to a combination of factors, but as we get older it is more likely due to our thought processes and how willing we are … Continue reading When Old Ideas Get In The Way
In a Year of Turmoil, A Story of Hope
The early part of this year was extremely brutal, with many losses, changes, bad news, and for many months it seemed like it would never end. Today, I can finally write a story of hope and courage. For some, it is a miracle. For others, a tragedy. But in the end, it is a story … Continue reading In a Year of Turmoil, A Story of Hope
Getting Real
Today, I need to get personal, and I need to get real. I could ask the question, "What does it take to become a minister?", or make a comment regarding hypocrisy, and how most people (including myself), will make complaints about what other people are doing, but refuse to see it in themselves. Today, I'm … Continue reading Getting Real
Spending Time Alone
For most of my life, I hated being alone. I hated the fear of what was going to return, I hated the fear of not having done enough, or done something wrong. The uncomfortability of being part of a dysfunctional home was preferable to the fear of not knowing. Plus, having someone else in the … Continue reading Spending Time Alone
Living Up to Expectations
For most of my life I tried to live up to other people's expectations: family, friends, teachers, etc. Most of the expectations I was expected to live up to were also directly conflictory with other things I was being told. For example, "you can be anything you want to be, but you can't do ... ". … Continue reading Living Up to Expectations
The Power Of…
When I was a child, I used to tell my mother, "When I grow up, I am going to have...)", and I would list off all of the things I wanted for my life. In true fashion for her, my mother would find ways to denigrate every thing I said, and tell me why I … Continue reading The Power Of…
Sudden Changes
This week I had a sudden, unexpected schedule change at work. I could look at it as an event that got in the way of my prior plans, or I could see it as a benefit to current issues and events in my life. I prefer the second viewpoint. While my husband and I did … Continue reading Sudden Changes
Time Flies With the Winds of Change
So many things seem to be happening lately, I am having a hard time keeping up. This year seems to be flying by. I can't believe it's June already, and mid-summer is upon us already. There are so many things I want to write about, and so little time to write with everything going on. … Continue reading Time Flies With the Winds of Change
Walking a Long Path
It's late. Or early, depending on which end of the day you are looking at it from. Personally, I'm trying to wind down from a busy night at work, so I can sleep before my long couple of days coming up. But, it's giving me time to think, and remember. Many years ago, when I … Continue reading Walking a Long Path
