When I was a child, I used to tell my mother, “When I grow up, I am going to have…)”, and I would list off all of the things I wanted for my life. In true fashion for her, my mother would find ways to denigrate every thing I said, and tell me why I couldn’t have it. Granted, some of the things I wanted might have seemed absurd and grandiose, maybe even fantastical, but aren’t we supposed to dream big (especially as kids!)?
Time moved on, as time will, and eventually life began to happen as it does. I was young, inexperienced, had already made more bad choices than I can count, a new mother and none of my dreams were coming true. The negativity was beginning to sink in. Time kept moving, life kept happening. Suddenly I was not as young, not nearly so inexperienced, had added an infinite number to the list of bad choices, a mother of a very independent child, and my dreams still hadn’t come true. The negativity was sinking me.
I was angry, I was depressed, I was frustrated at life and everything in it. Every decision I made was bad (or so I thought), and I was on the edge of giving up. That’s what I thought anyway. Turns out, the Spirit has given us as humans the massive capacity to never give up. It’s called Hope and Will Power. I couldn’t give up. I knew there was an answer. With a lot of Love, Support and help, I found it.
When you grow up grasping at the power of negativity because it’s the only thing you know, letting go and giving it up is the scariest thing in the world. I know that it is always there, lurking and waiting in the shadows. But I know that as long as I hold onto the Power of Positivity, the Power of Love, the Power of Gratitude, as long as I am always willing, there is always Hope. How do I know? Because now I have everything I ever dreamed of. It all came true.
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