When I was a child and did something wrong, the punishment was usually long and arduous, especially if it involved both of my parents. And regardless of the circumstances, regardless of whether or not I was simply grounded to my room, spanked, or if it involved yelling at me, it always involved a lecture about … Continue reading Punishment and Healing
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Pay to What???
So as many of you know, music in our home isn't just something that we play, it's a big part of what we do. Music is life in our home, and there is always at least one project happening, and often more than one. I've been to more shows than I can count where, if … Continue reading Pay to What???
Getting Real
Today, I need to get personal, and I need to get real. I could ask the question, "What does it take to become a minister?", or make a comment regarding hypocrisy, and how most people (including myself), will make complaints about what other people are doing, but refuse to see it in themselves. Today, I'm … Continue reading Getting Real
Spending Time Alone
For most of my life, I hated being alone. I hated the fear of what was going to return, I hated the fear of not having done enough, or done something wrong. The uncomfortability of being part of a dysfunctional home was preferable to the fear of not knowing. Plus, having someone else in the … Continue reading Spending Time Alone
Drama, Drama Everywhere…
and not a bite of news on which to think. The last several days, as I usually do, I've been watching the headlines in the "news", and I keep wondering, "Where is it? Where is my news?". I keep watching the headlines, and nothing that I see in the news matches what I see and … Continue reading Drama, Drama Everywhere…
Living Up to Expectations
For most of my life I tried to live up to other people's expectations: family, friends, teachers, etc. Most of the expectations I was expected to live up to were also directly conflictory with other things I was being told. For example, "you can be anything you want to be, but you can't do ... ". … Continue reading Living Up to Expectations
The Power Of…
When I was a child, I used to tell my mother, "When I grow up, I am going to have...)", and I would list off all of the things I wanted for my life. In true fashion for her, my mother would find ways to denigrate every thing I said, and tell me why I … Continue reading The Power Of…
Sudden Changes
This week I had a sudden, unexpected schedule change at work. I could look at it as an event that got in the way of my prior plans, or I could see it as a benefit to current issues and events in my life. I prefer the second viewpoint. While my husband and I did … Continue reading Sudden Changes
Time Flies With the Winds of Change
So many things seem to be happening lately, I am having a hard time keeping up. This year seems to be flying by. I can't believe it's June already, and mid-summer is upon us already. There are so many things I want to write about, and so little time to write with everything going on. … Continue reading Time Flies With the Winds of Change
Stirring Up Old Emotions
One of my lifelong problems has been that I do not usually express my emotions. I'm the type that can sit in a comedy show with a stone-cold expression on my face. Over the course of my life, in my experience, anything else is painful. And yet, it is through my emotions that my passion … Continue reading Stirring Up Old Emotions
