Depression Can Be A Bitch

Something I have fought all my life is depression.  If you look back at some of my other posts, sometimes it becomes obvious that I have it.  When I was around 20 years old, I was diagnosed with what is called "Cyclothymia".  An easier way to know what that is - A-typical bi-polarity (more extreme … Continue reading Depression Can Be A Bitch

Are You Listening?

The Spirit is always speaking to us, sometimes in small and subtle ways, sometimes in ways that are so obvious it seems hard to miss.  If we are not getting the messages, then most likely we are not listening. For example, if there is an issue you are struggling with and you hear a song, … Continue reading Are You Listening?

In a Year of Turmoil, A Story of Hope

The early part of this year was extremely brutal, with many losses, changes, bad news, and for many months it seemed like it would never end.  Today, I can finally write a story of hope and courage.  For some, it is a miracle.  For others, a tragedy.  But in the end, it is a story … Continue reading In a Year of Turmoil, A Story of Hope

Pay to What???

So as many of you know, music in our home isn't just something that we play, it's a big part of what we do.  Music is life in our home, and there is always at least one project happening, and often more than one.  I've been to more shows than I can count where, if … Continue reading Pay to What???

Getting Real

Today, I need to get personal, and I need to get real.  I could ask the question, "What does it take to become a minister?", or make a comment regarding hypocrisy, and how most people (including myself), will make complaints about what other people are doing, but refuse  to see it in themselves. Today, I'm … Continue reading Getting Real

Spending Time Alone

For most of my life, I hated being alone.  I hated the fear of what was going to return, I hated the fear of not having done enough, or done something wrong.  The uncomfortability of being part of a dysfunctional home was preferable to the fear of not knowing.  Plus, having someone else in the … Continue reading Spending Time Alone

Living Up to Expectations

For most of my life I tried to live up to other people's expectations:  family, friends, teachers, etc. Most of the expectations I was expected to live up to were also directly conflictory with other things I was being told.  For example, "you can be anything you want to be, but you can't do ... ".  … Continue reading Living Up to Expectations

The Power Of…

When I was a child, I used to tell my mother, "When I grow up, I am going to have...)", and I would list off all of the things I wanted for my life.  In true fashion for her, my mother would find ways to denigrate every thing I said, and tell me why I … Continue reading The Power Of…

Sudden Changes

This week I had a sudden, unexpected schedule change at work.  I could look at it as an event that got in the way of my prior plans, or I could see it as a benefit to current issues and events in my life.  I prefer the second viewpoint. While my husband and I did … Continue reading Sudden Changes

Time Flies With the Winds of Change

So many things seem to be happening lately, I am having a hard time keeping up.  This year seems to be flying by.  I can't believe it's June already, and mid-summer is upon us already. There are so many things I want to write about, and so little time  to write with everything going on.  … Continue reading Time Flies With the Winds of Change