So it’s been awhile since I’ve written anything. There has been a lot going on, and I’ve had to step back and examine everything that’s happened, and allow my emotions and thoughts to sort themselves out.
I’ve talked about drama in the workplace quite a bit recently, and that is the major part of what has occurred. The sad fact, is that it is time for me to move on. I truly enjoy what I do, but if I stay in that job, the darkness will eventually overtake me, and it will become more and more difficult for me to stay on the right path in my life.
One of the things that most of us learn as children is both how to not take responsibility and blame someone or something outside ourselves for the situation, while simultaneously we are also punished for things that we do, and something that we may not have done. This often creates a very hypocritical self-righteous self-defensiveness in our egos. This is something I try very hard to overcome in my life.
This is why it is so hard to stay in my job. Going to work, especially working day shift, is very difficult as it is exactly like walking into an argument or fight on a school playground. It’s also like walking right back into the kinds of fights that my family had, and why I left my family. I am too old for this kind of drama, and I am no longer willing to participate. I am seeking to make a positive change in my employment situation and have already begun taking steps to do so.
Meanwhile, we’re making positive changes on the homefront as well. We are working our way back to positive physical activity, meditating and juicing again. The path is being laid before us, and we are following it. It’s not always easy, but it is always worth it.