It’s been awhile since my last post. I apologize, and Thank you for being patient with me. So much has happened in the last couple of weeks, and through the last month that every time I thought I found a moment of peace, everything went haywire again. The stress and drama at work had me so worn out, physically and mentally that a large part of the time, I have spent trying to sleep and recuperate.
In the last couple of weeks or so, there has been enough drama for my “self” to drag up a bunch of old issues, so I’m trying to work through some old emotions as they come up. These are some of the deeper wounds that go back so far that I’m not sure I can remember them, but I’ve been trying to allow myself to feel them so I can purge the negativity.
I have managed to get something done I’ve wanted to do. I keep having all these ideas about what to write about, but they would always come up at inopportune moments and I would forget them. I finally took a few minutes and got them written down, so that I can expand on them later. As always, I keep seeing connections between different subjects, how things fit together in different ways, that I want to share. Also, in the last month or so, have gotten started on the video projects, so hopefully more on that soon.
More than anything though, tonight’s post is about connection. I see so much negativity on a regular basis, and it’s been having a seriously negative effect on me. It is often very difficult for me to keep my energy up, and deal with so much of the madness that I see that I tend to push people away. I’ve done it for years. That’s part of why taking the job that I did was such a good thing for me. It was helping me deal with that part of myself. Instead, I am worse off in many ways, and pushing away more. So tonight, I want to connect. I want to write so that I can connect with you, with everyone out there. So that we don’t have to feel alone any longer. So that we can find strength in each other. So that we can share together. So we can connect with each other, and heal together.