Welcome back Warriors! Now that things are beginning to settle down into the beginnings of a new normal, I’ve been able to take a look back and ponder the events of the last year.
Life is always full of changes. That’s how we learn and grow, as individuals and as a society. A year ago, I was beginning the process of trying to clear up and complete some major household projects, and get several long-term projects completed. Just like many of you, we reached that point where significant progress had been made, then events that were totally out of our control occurred, and it seemed for many months that disaster after disaster struck. I had reached beyond my breaking point, and was so far past burn-out that even that would have been a nice break from everything that was occurring.
Over the last several months, I’ve been able to take a look back, and see how much the Spirit was guiding us into new states of being, how well we were being taken care of and looked after as we were facing challenge after challenge. We are in a much better space to continue with our plans and everything we want to complete, both with our physical “den”, but also with ourselves as well.
I am still in the process of absorbing everything that has happened. There are so many lessons that I want to share with all of you. In many ways, I feel like I am starting over with much of what I was trying to do a year ago (the house projects particularly), and in many ways I feel like I am picking up from where I left off.
While going through this process, I can tell you that a year ago, part of me was feeling very incomplete, as there was virtually no creativity in my world. Even writing this blog was becoming “just another job” on my task, and I’m not willing to let that happen (if it ever does become that for real, I will stop writing, and close down the page which I came very close to doing this time around – thanks to my newest Warriors, I found hope, and strength to keep working on things). Now, I have a job where I can keep my creative juices flowing, work on the blog, and work on creating the business that I had first started over a decade ago.
I feel more balanced that I did last year, more at peace with possibilities and potentials. I feel as though I am carrying less emotional baggage than last year, and am more ready to bring out and discuss much of the healing that I have gone through.
Sometimes, it takes a real shake-up, an emotional or mental disaster to break us through to where we need to be, and the last year has been that for me. Now, while I haven’t lessened the amount of what I am doing, I am finding that I am able to be more inclusive about my activities, I have more balance between focus and fun, between work and play, between functional and creativity.
I haven’t sidelined any of what I want to do with this page, and all of the changes that have occurred so far and in line with bringing those wants into fruition. They may not happen as early as I want them to, but they are now in process, and I feel as though the fulfillment of a lifelong dream is coming.
In closing, I have to say that the best thing that could have happened is that I was pushed into taking a much needed break. While not fully healed, I am feeling more refreshed and capable of what needs to happen. Breaks need to happen from time to time, for healing, for creativity, for coming back stronger and more powerful than we were previously.
Until the next time, keep up your dreams, keep up your passions and drive. Heal when you need to, but never give up, and always come back.