One of the issues I face daily is that I don’t enjoy leaving my home space. Here, I feel safe, here I can heal and not face the barrage of negative energy that comes with interacting with the outside world. Even with a job that I enjoyed, it was always a struggle to get there. During a recent conversation with my husband, the best way I could explain it is this: some days it’s like being brushed with a feather all day. Some days it’s like being hit with a mallet. Even a feather hurts after a few hours, with a mallet it’s beyond being drained. Going out socially for me, is often no different. Once I get there, I’m usually ok, but I’m still usually exhausted within a few hours.
Last night, I did something unusual. A local restaurant owned by my employers at the chapel was featured on a paranormal show, and the air date was last night. The restaurant stayed open late for the show and I met my employers (who are also incredible friends) and my step-son there to watch it air. Before the show however, my boss arranged for me to meet the local paranormal group, and I was able to go into the parts of the building that were featured on the show for a mini ghost hunt!
Last night, I confronted a difficult part of my being, and was rewarded with a beautiful location, and the experience of witnessing proof of what I have known, experienced and discussed for years – the existence of the paranormal (yes, there was some activity while I was there!). I got to learn more about the history of the building that my friends own, and of the town where we live, and I got to see my friends on a successful tv show. And best of all, when I came home, I was energized instead of exhausted.
Last night was a beautiful night, and a great experience. And it shows me that not every time I go out will be difficult experience. I can choose to go out and interact, and it can be a rewarding experience, not a painful one.