I’ve already spoken about how much last year, quite frankly, really sucked. It was devastating emotionally, draining physically, and my stress levels skyrocketed beyond belief. I am grateful to say that so far, this year is already different.
I’m not going to tell you that life is easier than last year. It’s not. We’ve had some problems we have been dealing with carry through, and they are still not entirely resolved. However, we have turned each issue into an opportunity to learn and grow Spiritually, and heal emotionally. In fact, I would go so far as to say that we have done more healing recently than we have in months.
Can I tell you what the main difference is? No. There is no one thing that I can name that changed. I can say that one of, if not the, greatest result so far is that our communication has opened up in ways that I never expected, and healing has been the result.
What I mean by that is this… For my entire life I have been shown by everyone around me (and I do mean everyone – parents, spouses, friends) that I cannot talk about my deepest feelings, emotions, etc because there is always a negative consequence. It’s a sentiment that we are all aware of, and have all likely been through, probably multiple times in our lives. Now imagine, if the person closest to you, and someone who is guilty of exactly what I just described, suddenly stops creating the bad outcome. Our normal reaction is an egoic one: we are likely to become scared because their expected reaction didn’t happen, thereby causing a deeper trust issue, and we may go so far as to create a situation far worse than the original and escalating the mental distress (and yes, this is what happens in the subconscious thinking process for most of us).
What we have been finding recently has been the opposite. There’s been no reaction, instead we’ve had contemplation, discussion, acknowledgement, openness. We’ve even found old memories linked somehow to our thought processes. We have found compassion and understanding through our communication, and we’ve been able to begin to heal old, severe wounds. Through this process we have begun to de-program the old thinking processes in our minds.
I know that this is only a beginning. I know that it has taken us years to even get to this part. But it gives me hope. And it gives me peace. If there is hope for us, there is hope for the world.